September marks the 3 1/2 year ‘anniversary’ of my first stay in a mental hospital. July 2013 will mark four years. Each September, as the kids start back to school I’m flooded with memories of the day I fell apart and went in that first time. I was obviously a complete mess, but I honestly …

On Tuesday John will start kindergarten. Full day, every day. Sarah will be in first, Violet in fourth. And they’ll all be in the same school. All day, every day. Which means, I’m home, alone. Alone. I thought I was going to be all, “Woohooo!! Freedom!!” But instead I’m all, “Woohoo. Freedom.” I’m making lists …

On Tuesday we went to my in laws in New Jersey with the hope that my husband would get to kayak the Delaware and fish while Sarah and John and I hung out with Grandma and Grandpa. I took my knitting and some work, knowing the kids would be entertained by the new “old” toys …

On Tuesday John will start kindergarten. Full day, every day. Sarah will be in first, Violet in fourth. And they’ll all be in the same school. All day, every day. Which means, I’m home, alone. Alone. I thought I was going to be all, “Woohooo!! Freedom!!” But instead I’m all, “Woohoo. Freedom.” I’m making lists …

That one time I was wrong?? Yeah. I texted my psychiatrist (because she’s awesome and gave me her cell number for just these times) and said: This is Kim. Can you please call me when you get a chance? I’m having some problems with my anxiety level and am leaving for vacation on Sunday. Oh, and …

Violet left for Bible camp on Monday afternoon — for a week. I was worried and didn’t think she was ready to go, it turns out I was the one who wasn’t ready. She was vibrating with excitement and anticipation for weeks before hand and couldn’t even sit still the day we dropped her off. …

I’m afraid you were depressed – even though it could be a bonding and educational relationship for us both. But I’m afraid you were depressed. (And I’m afraid to tell you I was depressed and stll struggle with depression/anxiety.Which is totally ridiculous becuase I tell the world here (or, like 12 of you). I mean, …

Who is more conservative than me. I know. And it is wonderful. She restricts the same shows I do. I even let my kids watch a show she doesn’t – crazy days! Her kids watch less TV than mine, spend more time outside and play more independently than mine. I love it. Sarah and her …

My children, mainly John know of my many doctors. And I hate it. On Monday I had to go to the doctor for just a ‘regular’ appointment and John was full of questions. “Are we going to the doctor with the doggy?” That is my psychiatrist. “Are we going to the doctor with the sand …

For the past week Violet has been rattling my brain and testing every parenting skill I have — small as they may be. On Monday night she had a softball game – and it turns out that this year Violet is quite good at softball (she’s also the oldest on her team . . .). …